I think I'm finally out from under my dark cloud of depression due to my brake up. I've been cleaning up my room a little, doing my month worth of laundry, and generally moving away from those negative feelings. Something that's helped me move on is...
I'm buying tickets to London on Friday. I've never been out side of the US, so I'm excited about everything to do with the trip. I'm also going to do my best to meet other SG chatters while in London. I talk with so many UK ppl that I'm just dieing to meet ANY of them! I'll keep you all up to date on my trip plans.
I was saving the money for a motorcycle, but this is something that I've wanted to do long before I wanted a motorcycle, and I think even if things don't go as planed I'll get a lot more out of this trip then I will a motorcycle.
In other news... I'm going back to Iowa in a month for a class reunion. I was talking with my sister and she's asked me to run a 5k (3.1mile) race with her on the 4th. Now I haven't raced in 19 years, haven't ran in like 9 years, and I don't even own a pare of running shoes. SO my goal is to have shoes and get some sort of training in by the time I get to Iowa in 21 days 
I have a 5k loop I can run and as soon as I get shoes I'm going to see how long it takes. When I was running I had an average pace of 5:23min mile close to 12 MPH.
I'm doing my best to be like Jim Carrey in "Yes Man". There are so many things I just say no to because I'm insecure about what the outcome will be, and it's obvious to me now that I'm cheating myself out of a great life. so look forward to more "crazy" things I maybe doing in the future... like maybe getting back to Fetish Modeling, and doing fetish videos.
as always, Love you guys. <3
. So jealous you are going to London! I need to get my passport. 