mr_ruckus

Heavy liquid thoughts
Got some hard thinking to do.
I can't believe that she cried
over the phone
telling me that she wants to be with me. I never expected this.
I didn't know she was holding
this
inside
almost to the point of bursting.
I didn't know I caused her pain by being with that woman.
When
I could have
had
her.

Is this my fate?
or
is she just bugging?
She's always here
but now i see how she wanted
to cross the room
and caress and kiss me.
I love her but not in that way
but I wanna love again
this
she knows.

I fear no one but Jah
yet
I'm scared of losing my best friend
if
we fall apart.