mr_peen

why are you sleeping so much? maybe because i only find peace and relaxation in sleep. or maybe it is because i find little joy during my normal day. every day i step closer to insanity from the questions that plague my mind and heart. every day i grow closer to quitting. and by quitting i mean, moving to nyc and living on the streets, no friends, only have a few, that i would still keep in touch with, no family, i am a burden for them. i am not who i dreamed of being. as hard as i try to change to who i want to be, change is sometimes a lost cause. i as empty as water. are ppl really confident? why are they confident? am i that much of a perfectionist that i can not be confident when there is a possiblity of failure. which is my deepest fear. to fail. is this all in my head? am i that deprived of friends and converstation that i am stir crazy in my own mind? or am i really this lonely? fuck....