o.k. i'm extremely bored right now so i might as well post a journal entry. ready?
here is a bleak passage from my favorite writer, F. Scott Fitzgerald, on the pain of growing older from The Beautiful and Damned:
"I reached maturity under the impression that I was gathering the experience to order my life for happiness. Indeed, I accomplished the not unusual feat of solving each question in my mind long before it presented itself to me in life-and of being beaten and bewildered just the same.
But after a few tastes of this latter dish I had had enough. Here! I said, Experience is not worth the getting. It's not a thing that happens pleasantly to a passive you-it's a wall that an active you runs up against. So I wrapped myself in what I thought was my invulnerable scepticism and decided that my education was complete. But it was too late. Protect myself as I might by making no new ties with tragic and predestined humanity, I was lost with the rest. I had traded the fight against love for the fight against loneliness, the fight against life for the fight against death."
Fitzgerald's heros were such tragic creatures-sigh. It's such a weakness of mine to be influenced by the poignancy of great writing and think my life to be much more dramatic than it really is or deserves to be.
i'm actually quite happy now in case you were wondering-i suffer from a perpetually sad heart-how very emo of me
hey! what am i reading/what are you reading right now?!
what i'm reading: G.K. Chesterton's Orthodoxy-if you liked C.S. Lewis' musings on Christianity, you will like this.
Molly Steven's All About Braising-a fantastic book and a freebie from my cookbook buying colleague at work. How's about a little taste of my Morroccan chicken with green olives and preserved lemons?
Arthur Rimbaud's A Season in Hell and Illuminations-how could i lived so many years and not have read these brilliant works? a kindered spirit.
my friend and his band Society of Rockets are playing tomorrow night at the Hotel Utah. check out the review of their last album on Pitchfork. do you like the theremin and a brass section to go along with your indie music? check them out!
be good.
here is a bleak passage from my favorite writer, F. Scott Fitzgerald, on the pain of growing older from The Beautiful and Damned:
"I reached maturity under the impression that I was gathering the experience to order my life for happiness. Indeed, I accomplished the not unusual feat of solving each question in my mind long before it presented itself to me in life-and of being beaten and bewildered just the same.
But after a few tastes of this latter dish I had had enough. Here! I said, Experience is not worth the getting. It's not a thing that happens pleasantly to a passive you-it's a wall that an active you runs up against. So I wrapped myself in what I thought was my invulnerable scepticism and decided that my education was complete. But it was too late. Protect myself as I might by making no new ties with tragic and predestined humanity, I was lost with the rest. I had traded the fight against love for the fight against loneliness, the fight against life for the fight against death."
Fitzgerald's heros were such tragic creatures-sigh. It's such a weakness of mine to be influenced by the poignancy of great writing and think my life to be much more dramatic than it really is or deserves to be.
i'm actually quite happy now in case you were wondering-i suffer from a perpetually sad heart-how very emo of me
hey! what am i reading/what are you reading right now?!
what i'm reading: G.K. Chesterton's Orthodoxy-if you liked C.S. Lewis' musings on Christianity, you will like this.
Molly Steven's All About Braising-a fantastic book and a freebie from my cookbook buying colleague at work. How's about a little taste of my Morroccan chicken with green olives and preserved lemons?
Arthur Rimbaud's A Season in Hell and Illuminations-how could i lived so many years and not have read these brilliant works? a kindered spirit.
my friend and his band Society of Rockets are playing tomorrow night at the Hotel Utah. check out the review of their last album on Pitchfork. do you like the theremin and a brass section to go along with your indie music? check them out!
be good.
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
datsun:
thanks! I'm feeling okay. I get tired really easily, but not feeling too sore... tonight I felt yucky for the first time since I got to Texas (well, the day I arrived sucked, but since Saturday at least)
brocklee:
having a sad heart is good at times..it makes us appreciate the good that exists..no?