moya

They fired the laser at my crotch again today, and boy did they fire away.. I think I need to draw arrows next time, of where the 'brazilian' actually all goes. Or I can take my pants off, tell her to stand next to me so I can bend over and show her where she needs to go with that thing. Oh, and it was a new lady, again. That makes six women who got to smear that cold, slippery ultrasound gel stuff all over me with a popsicle stick. You know you like it. I only yelped twice this time.

I take my last final tomorrow. Study hard, study hard. It's for my computers class, I didn't finish the final program, well I did but it doesn't work when you hit 'calculate'. So I get to present that piece tomorrow. I think I started to fail that class a few weeks ago.. Maybe programming really isn't my thing.

I also plan to take up writing again. I found my old journal, a huge black book with nothing but lined paper in it. Even so, I'd like to write again. I haven't read a book nor written in a long time..

A dear friend of mine was online today and we sort of caught up and I confessed a few things that needed to said. I feel better about the decisions I've made as of recently, the things about myself I've realized that have changed, and the decisions I'll be making later on.
I just took a picture of the ice cream truck. He drives way too fast for the kids to run outside and stop him; I think if I were to help them, he'd look in his rearview mirror, see this freak in black chasing the truck, think a monster from hell came to kill him, and slam on the gas. Then where would the kids be, and I'd be out of breathe down the block, far from home. And, blast! He'd be getting away at a mere 20 miles per hour.

The VNV Nation concert is this saturday and I have the entire day to pretty myself up (no work all weekend). I can't wait. I'm not sure if I want to be in front, or back to move around, and god forbid dance if I wanted. Then again it's the rave, so who knows where they'll be and how crowded it'll be. I guess I choose by location when I get there..
I'm disappointed, too, that I'm not going to the Social Distortion concert in Green Bay tonight. I could cry. They are one of my favorites, and I almost did die at the last concert, plus I saw nothing..

The birds are chirping outside and I can picture the blue sky beyond the green leaves outside the window. When the sun starts to set, for a few minutes at some point in time, the leaves reflect a fiery golden brightness that made me catch my breath yesterday afternoon.
I was caught, stopped, in a perfect moment, something I'm afforded only so often, gazing up and out the window, from my spot on the floor, and Deadsy's 'Brand New Love' came on. My heart froze for a short moment before I felt me letting go of myself; of course, it ended as the song ended, which is when I came back and noticed the leaves had faded just a bit and it was no longer perfect.

Moments are few and far between, but the escapes they warrant me are priceless. The song itself reminds me of last summer, or is it the one before that? and it reminds me of someone who makes me smile upon thought, yet I cannot remember who anymore.