moya

Wow. I think, for once, I'm too lazy to want to write an entry . That's okay. I'll keep going for you anyway.

First, I am considering a new job (actually, and yes, finally). It's at this old-persons place, where I'll get $10 an hour for dishing out food with a friend, rather than freezing/busting/losing/strangling my balls for $6.25 an hour after 18 months. I think I deserve better. And they apparently won't mind it if I have hair the color of the rainbow, or a hole in my face here or there. I'm told that you just have to take the piercing out, or hide it, as in put a band-aid over it so no one sees it. I wear band-aids on my face all the time, it wouldn't be any different . Dream job! Actually, no, but it's alot of money. And old people are cute, and I was also informed they like to see the different colored hair. And I don't want to continue to die once a day from acids.

I'm still waiting to hear my from sister as to whether or not we're going to get that cat anytime soon. I notice as I'm coming home at 11:12 in the AM, I burst into tears because I'm about to go home to no one. Then I leave for work. It's just a miserable time. I don't enjoy it. Maybe if we get a cat for a week, then for a week, I'll drive home with a smile on my face, and leave with a smile on my face. You know what I really want to do? I wake up at 6 every morning. Some mornings, I'd like to wake up, shower, get dressed..drive over to someones house or something, and crawl in bed with them and sleep until the afternoon. With hugs and cuddles and giggles. That would be so cool. But for now, I might get a little kitty to wake up next to! I cannot wait.. I'm going to SMOTHER that thing in all the bottled up love I have to give..so, um. It might get bothered with all the attention.. God damnit I want that cat.

Next week, I'm apparently going to the UWM campus to do a paper. The library. I fell in love with that library the first time I stepped into it. I found a book in there that I've wanted to read for years, but never found. I really enjoy going to that library. I'm worried about who I might run into, though .

It's 8 pm on a friday night. I am ready to go to bed. I came home from work, and after thinking about who I could call to go out, or explore Milwaukee with, or if I know anyone who might be having a party, I realized my friend issue is more terrible than I thought, and trust me, I've known it's been a cause of my sadness. I didn't come up with one person who I could feel okay spending time with. The thing is, is that I try so hard, and yet it is so difficult to make friends. I haven't made one, despite my efforts of going to new places, the mall, walks...

I'm going to join a regional group or two or *three* sometime in the next day or two. I'd like someone to tell me how the hell a private group works, how you get into it, can YOU get me into it and really, now, what is the prom everyone keeps talking about?! Is everyone invited?

In three days, it will be my one month on this site. I'm up to 426 comments already.. I was thinking it would be cool if I broke 500 per month, but..well, I have 3 days left. We'll see.

The bleeder comes tomorrow night . I've been screwing around with my patch schedule, and why I decided I wanted it by sunday, not tuesday, is beyond me. I can't remember my reasoning, but when I got up yesterday morning (when I took it off), as I was about to step into the shower, I had 'take me off!' sloppishly written on my ass next to it. I obeyed the ass, despite the forgetting of my justification.

Concerts need to get better REAL soon. There aren't any good ones coming up for the next few months.. I cannot wait for Summerfest.