I am a bit of a mess of uncertainty right now. One interview: that's all I need. One phone call. One email. Any sign of interest at all, and I will feel instantly better about myself. I AM employable. I AM!!! I keep telling myself that, so why isn't anyone listening?
I foolishly listed my website on one application, and am scared to death to update now, for fear that my more neurotic tendencies might be splashed on the pages there at just the time my dream-job HR person decides to check it out. OF COURSE it's the job that I really want that I screwed that up with. FUCK.
Right now, I'm feeling very frustrated with my social phobia. It's pissing me off. I'm trying to meet new people, and fucking it all up. I am a dumbass.
I foolishly listed my website on one application, and am scared to death to update now, for fear that my more neurotic tendencies might be splashed on the pages there at just the time my dream-job HR person decides to check it out. OF COURSE it's the job that I really want that I screwed that up with. FUCK.
Right now, I'm feeling very frustrated with my social phobia. It's pissing me off. I'm trying to meet new people, and fucking it all up. I am a dumbass.
I must agree that waitting around for the call backs & such is soooo dull. It takes all the energy out of you. I decided to return to school as I couldn't continue in that state any longer. I'm sure your quite employable by the way.
Sometimes we screw things up on purpose for some reason. Maybe they'll like the website? Meeting new people is never easy I agree. Maybe your being a bit too hard on yourself about the whole sitsuation. I'd be interested in being a new friend of yours? Oh well, I'm sure your not a dumass too. Have a good weekend.