Off to Disneyland.
Can't wait.
Can't wait.
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Do you ever feel like you can't do anything right? Like the things you need are just out of your reach?
I feel like that alot now.
So maybe I'll just take the job tomorrow and turn into a corporate robot again. I hated being that person, but I also hate this feeling of worthlessness.
I feel like that alot now.
So maybe I'll just take the job tomorrow and turn into a corporate robot again. I hated being that person, but I also hate this feeling of worthlessness.
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doolittle:
you are not worthless. although since you are driving all the way to tucson and back in one night makes me wonder if you took the short bus as a kid. i understand why you are going, she is worth it, but tomorrow the road to tucson will still be there. i on the other hand, won't be 
sjtwelve:
what thrasher said
Thigs seem to be looking up a little. I have an interview tomorrow, we're seeing Star Wars tonight, I have a little money in the bank, and unemployment looks like it might be going through.
But somehow I still feel like I have nothing when that girls not around.
I guess somehow I'll learn how to move forward on my own.
But somehow I still feel like I have nothing when that girls not around.
I guess somehow I'll learn how to move forward on my own.
thrasher:
While you all are watching the OC we'll be watching Star Wars.
thrasher:
Yeah, we bought our tickets for Thursday evening while you guys will be at Jill's watching the worst show on TV 
we're coming over after though
we're coming over after though
I got up super early again to try and be productive. I got some new job leads and worked a few more connections. Hopefully I will be employed and busy again one of these days.
I have so much on my mind right now, but it all comes back to one thing.
I really miss that girl being around me all the time.
I have so much on my mind right now, but it all comes back to one thing.
I really miss that girl being around me all the time.
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supergp:
Well, good luck with the job hunt!
downingolsen:
remember there is always the army....
I've been feeling worthless lately, so today I went on a massive job search. Now I feel a little more productive, but I realize I have a long road ahead.
Depending on how the rest of my day goes I might just go see Lords of Dogtown tonight by myself... that's out already right???
Depending on how the rest of my day goes I might just go see Lords of Dogtown tonight by myself... that's out already right???
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thrasher:
I saw this today and thought it was funny
I saw this today and thought it was funny
heartyou:
Sending you some love darling. I love that new picture of you. Thats from my house. 
My world has now completely crumbled.
Who I was six months ago and what I knew are gone.
But I think I might end up OK.
Who I was six months ago and what I knew are gone.
But I think I might end up OK.
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delilahb:
PS. Adam Brody is my boyfriend. Hands off
delilahb:
it sounds like you have a good outlook about the whole thing. I think that is what really matters, you know?
Have you ever had one of those days when you go through all of your old shit and come across pictures and other little things that you have saved but didn't realized you saved? I found some old conversations that included illustrations that my friends and I used to write when we were in class. It made me laugh. Just wanted to share that with someone.
Have you ever had one of those days when you go through all of your old shit and come across pictures and other little things that you have saved but didn't realized you saved? I found some old conversations that included illustrations that my friends and I used to write when we were in class. It made me laugh. Just wanted to share that with someone.
I think I have been way too consumed by stress over the past few months. It occasionally subsides, but for the most part I have been a complete train wreck for a while now and I'm starting to see it.
I don't know if I just need a vacation, or if I need to start smoking weed, or what the hell I need to do...
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I don't know if I just need a vacation, or if I need to start smoking weed, or what the hell I need to do...
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I feel really crappy today and I can't figure out why.
I think it might just be me getting old, or it could be the massive amount of stress and confusion I have going on right now.
Whatever it is, I hope it passes soon. I miss just being the normal me. It would be a welcome change.
I think it might just be me getting old, or it could be the massive amount of stress and confusion I have going on right now.
Whatever it is, I hope it passes soon. I miss just being the normal me. It would be a welcome change.
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delilahb:
I feel like I'm going to puke, but I think that's the alcohol. Feel better!
supergp:
Normal's boring! Be the nifty you.
Yesterday was a weird, long day.
Today was weird, but much better:
I went to lunch with Vanessa and her dad
I rode a moped
I saw an old friend I thought I'd never see again
I was offered a job in Tucson
Now were off to Jupes, me bitterman and handsomejoe.
Today was weird, but much better:
I went to lunch with Vanessa and her dad
I rode a moped
I saw an old friend I thought I'd never see again
I was offered a job in Tucson
Now were off to Jupes, me bitterman and handsomejoe.
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thrasher:
moped?
sounds like a good end to the day
sounds like a good end to the day
angelfuckaz:
I know I will be verry sad if it is true.
I hate realizing that I need to change things about myself when it might be too late to make a difference.
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doolittle:
why do you need to change? other then the jobless thing, which financially makes sense to change, you are a good guy.
why do you need to change? other then the jobless thing, which financially makes sense to change, you are a good guy.
pulp_x:
Its never too late. I mean I guess I can relate to that though we get used to a certain lifestyle and its damn hard to change it. anyway things will work out though they always seem to in the end!! Keep ur head up So cliche I know
So cliche I knowI'm looking for a new begining as much as a second chance.
I'm starting to see how much of my misery lately is my own fault. So I need to stop being a jackass and start being positive person again.
A PositiveMentalAttitude is the beginning. Or at least Karl Watson claims it.
I'm starting to see how much of my misery lately is my own fault. So I need to stop being a jackass and start being positive person again.
A PositiveMentalAttitude is the beginning. Or at least Karl Watson claims it.
Last might Myles called me out on the fact I've never gone golfing with him.
So today I get up early and get ready, and the mother fucker is already gone. So much for wasting this day in a little more positive way.
I guess that means its time for more job searching.
So today I get up early and get ready, and the mother fucker is already gone. So much for wasting this day in a little more positive way.
I guess that means its time for more job searching.
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dappergatsby:
I just hope you're enjoying this respite from having to go in to a job right now good sir....
There is an advantage to having so much free time..
don't let it stress you every minute that you've not a job yet.
I mean, then when you do get a gig
(and you will soon, I'm sure);
you'll be thinking back on all that free time you just had...
Tho i bet by now you're chomping at the bit.
well, I'm still sending good hiring vibes your way!
~gatsby
There is an advantage to having so much free time..
don't let it stress you every minute that you've not a job yet.
I mean, then when you do get a gig
(and you will soon, I'm sure);
you'll be thinking back on all that free time you just had...
Tho i bet by now you're chomping at the bit.
well, I'm still sending good hiring vibes your way!
~gatsby
supergp:
Well, Midnyte's doing resume consulting, if you need help in that regard.
If you want to move to Tucson and have some skill at debugging databases, I could try to get you a job where I work.
"Called you out"?
What, like "Bitch, you can't HANDLE golfing with me!"
If you want to move to Tucson and have some skill at debugging databases, I could try to get you a job where I work.
"Called you out"?
What, like "Bitch, you can't HANDLE golfing with me!"
swing by and say high to my mom