mothra

I'm getting some things off my chest and it feels good. I've been feeling like crap for too long, I needed to start calling some people out.

Thats all I have today... oh and I love skateboarding.

I couldn't sleep for months, now I find myself sleeping all day.

It's kind of nice to finally catch up.

Today: dinner with my dad, skateboarding, drinking beer.

I found love again.

The no-flat bowl at the Pecos park. It's the first thing that's helped keep me from thinking. I'm so terrified, and so stoked at the same time.

Next time I'll try to grind it over coping though... and I'm wearing knee pads. That thing is harsh, I'm in love though.

One more interview and I should know finally.

Thanks for all the support, maybe it helped.


Till then, drinking and rolling around on my skateboard.

Interview in 7 hours. If I get it it's 40k, no more partying... and no more worrying about where I go next.

Time to end the bender... almost.

I'm starting to get a feel for this rollercoaster life I've been living.

Things don't get easier, but you do get used to the unexpected drops. And it's much easier to do with a beer in your hand and your friends by your side.

The bender continues.

One of these days I'll pick myself back up.

So I just got back from the doctor and it's not looking good.

I was 147lbs in Febuary, now I'm 124lbs... that's a big drop for an already skinny guy.

I have to keep getting tests run and it could end up being nothing, but it also could be really, really bad.

I'm not too worried though, things happen for a reason and I don't...
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Fuck life sucks sometimes.

Today I need to buy some food, do my laundry and clean my house. This place is a dump.

Holy shit I feel awfull today. I don't know f its the drinking or the lack of sleep or what... but I have no energy and keep shaking.

Thank god I made that doctors opointment. This shit needs to stop.