So, after the conversation I had about an hour ago I am seriously considering leaving this town when my lease is up at the end of August.
The boys mom has made another appearance in my life and as per usual shes being sneaky and pretending that everything is happy go lucky, which I assure you is just a head game she is playing. Too bad he falls for it every time. I seriously cant handle this forever and I am beginning to think that it may be best to get out while things are still good. After all we arent married yet and I have a feeling that she would do everything in her power to ensure that we never get married and would be sure to make us miserable if we ever did.
I fucking hate that bitch. HATE, HATE, HATE her!!!!!!!!!!! Of course, he believes that she is really trying this time, even though this is her usual method of operation. He thinks that I can learn to trust her again, but thats not my way. I trusted her once and she hurt me on purposeIll never trust her again. That is simple self preservation. She may win the battle if I leave, but at least Ill survive it.
Not much else is really tying me here. I may venture back to my hometown for a while. My little brother could use my help with his band and my other brother is getting released early next yearhe sure as hell could use my support. The economy sucks up there, but rent is also cheap as hell. I dont think Id have too difficult of a time finding a job that paid enough to survive off. I could probably even buy a house pretty easily.
I hate having to even think about making this decision. Fuck itIm too sick to even think about it right now.
The boys mom has made another appearance in my life and as per usual shes being sneaky and pretending that everything is happy go lucky, which I assure you is just a head game she is playing. Too bad he falls for it every time. I seriously cant handle this forever and I am beginning to think that it may be best to get out while things are still good. After all we arent married yet and I have a feeling that she would do everything in her power to ensure that we never get married and would be sure to make us miserable if we ever did.
I fucking hate that bitch. HATE, HATE, HATE her!!!!!!!!!!! Of course, he believes that she is really trying this time, even though this is her usual method of operation. He thinks that I can learn to trust her again, but thats not my way. I trusted her once and she hurt me on purposeIll never trust her again. That is simple self preservation. She may win the battle if I leave, but at least Ill survive it.
Not much else is really tying me here. I may venture back to my hometown for a while. My little brother could use my help with his band and my other brother is getting released early next yearhe sure as hell could use my support. The economy sucks up there, but rent is also cheap as hell. I dont think Id have too difficult of a time finding a job that paid enough to survive off. I could probably even buy a house pretty easily.
I hate having to even think about making this decision. Fuck itIm too sick to even think about it right now.
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marinadenise:
I agree with Nikki! don't let her ruin things for you.
nori:
Fuck that darlin. Meddling mothers are a pain in the ass but you need to let her know where you stand and hold your ground. I know she is probably a total nagging judgmental asshole and I know that can feel very heavy but you are not obligated to get along with her. You don't owe her shit. It is her son you want to be with NOT her so try not to let it bother you so much. He is not under her thumb anymore. He is a big boy and you need to remind him of this too.