mostwanted76

journals are private thoughts sharing mine are impossible. I will share some of me,my story,where I'm at.I'm fucked out on bail April2003 my robbery trial will most likely start next month the only deal offered is 4 years house time out in 2. My baby my girl my partner of 7 years has already caught a bid shes out in 2006 I met her at the age of 20 she was 32 and sleeping with a girl I went to highschool with,I fell in love.The threesome turned into twosome when her girl told her to choose and she chose me.I love her and I miss her! she was my partner in crime,but shes doing time for something she did while I was locked up waiting for bail. If I was free she never would have gone down like that. I am not a bad person I've never harmed another that hasn't tryed to hurt me first. I don't steal from people {banks,jewlrystores,largecompanys is another story}and I treat others as I would like to treated I have alot of love for others. I belive in takeing care of my brothers&sisters. I know I'm in a sorry state. I know how I got here,the dope the dope it does it to me every time! 3 years ago everything was great me&my girl had moved into a lovely condo we were working fulltime paying the bills,going to shows ,eating out, drinking cocktails. The next year even better,we had some savings,she started to sell realestate,I started my own company,we were going to shows,eating XTC&OC's sex all night till it hurt!Then we started doing the dope again,and damded if a year later we hadn't lost all our "stuff" I lost my car,home,all that material shit that doesn't matter. I miss my baby! thats all just her nothing else matters We write letters and keep in touch I write "I LOVE YOU" she writes back "I LOVE YOU TOO!" but a letter cant hug you or kiss you or spoon with you in bed, letters suck! I'm lonely. I'll live I'm drug free [mostly] nither me nor her caught the bug we"re crazy but safe. I hope to be with her in 2006. I need to make some friends till then I make friends easyly but I also scare some people my life makes some people ucomfortable what can I do its my life things are going to get worse before they get better.