mork365

Fuck boys. I'm done with this shit. I haven't had a fight with shawn in so long. he was suck a prick justnow. we had a really nice talk about all sorts of shit. I'm so happy that i can tell him about how things are with my boy at home and he cen really ehlp me with that. but then as soon as i start talking about things that involve him he gets totally pissy. starts yelling at me because so many other people have told him beofre. in my book, i dont care how may of your other girlfriends have told you something before - you start over at square one with me, so when he tells me that yeah, i am just one of them, i kick his ass out.

didnt i just get done telling him that even if i'm COMPLETELY in love with this boy, he's still my number one while i'm here? i spent an hour telling him how much i love him and then he throw e into the group of "those girlfriends" and my opinion doesnt matter. FUCK.

so i picked up the phone and held it for a few minutes. i was gonna call this boy and tell him what he really means to me, cause it's a really good thing and i'm not about to let it go now. ive been holding off with the emotions with him cause i didnt know how far i wanted it to go, but now. shit. the last month or so, he's everything now. well, not everything. i totally have a life. but i realy want to let him know how i feel.

but i'm not gonna let him know that at midnight when i'm crying. bad idea.

aw hell, i can't wait till i get my period tomorrow and this shit stops.