morella

Wow, It has been way too long. I sort of forgot about suicide girls for a short period of time cause I had a lot going on. I will sum it all up really fast and short. Otherwise I will bore you all and it will be such a long blog! I found out around the last of my posts that I was pregnant!! yay! I was happy about that b/c I was trying for a while. Then I started getting sick. Very bad morning sickness and fatigue. Then I got the stupid H1N1 crap and got really sick. Luckily, obviously, I fought that off and I started to get meds for the morning sickness. I then found out that I was having triplets!!! If you are thinking what I was thinking, its "HOLY SHIT!" yeah.. I was like omg how can I do this! But then I was becoming ok with it. I started thinking, well I will just be done with kids.. Then I was crazy exhausted. I would work, eat and sleep. I think I did nothing else. Unfortunately at my next drs appt I learned that I had lost one of the babies. I was very upset. I felt like I had failed that baby. I know that it was ridiculous to think but I couldn't help feeling very depressed. I had to focus on the fact that I had two healthy babies still to worry about. (I later found out through a specialist that I was initially pregnant with quintuplets!!)
Being sick and tired is def part of normal pregnancy but I feel extra drained. I also am having a really hard time physically carrying the two. Guess my body knew that that was all I could handle.
I now was placed on bed rest. Until these babies come. I just started my third trimester so hopefully I can last long enough to have healthy babies. Crossing my fingers and trying to behave... I"M NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE SEX THOUGH so that really sucks.. Esp with raging hormones!! Anyway I miss you all and I hope everyone has been having fun!