mordork

Nothing really to update except im off to a wedding tonight (04/02/06) and i think me and tigger (someone i like alot) are at war with each other (she told me she doesnt even consider me a mate (and this after working togetha for 3 years)) which im very upset about, so upset i now have a scar running the whole lenth of my forearm (altho it aint deep and is healing nicely) julie says shes going to kill me for doing it but i find cutting helps carm me, i know i shouldnt but what else can i do?

Im destined to be alone forever since who would want a totaly fat, ugly screw up like me????