Well. I've been off work for a week, I've pretty well drank nothing but V8, Energy drinks, coffee and beer.
Which could be the cause of my jitters.
It's all finally setting in that I'm going. Starting to freak out a little.
I got in with the SC Canada West group. Found a girl who just moved to Van. Seemed to be struggling to get settled and to find other members in Vancouver.
So I go to her profile to make buddy-buddy. Her latest entry says she's out of money, hasn't been able to find work and is going back to Ontario... Encouraging.
Mind you, there were a few complications, and I am going over with about $3000 to live off off, with somewhere around a thousand to pay for shipping my junk and paying for my plan ticket.
But there's the thing.
What if I can't find work? I ship my junk then end up stuck, not able to pay to ship it back. Maybe I won't be able to sell it, I've blown 1K on getting it here. Now what?
Thinking rationally, I can't see myself being any better off here anyway. There would be no reason to come back. The house will hopefully be rented soon after I'm gone, or at least before my money would run out in BC. and I'd still have to find a job here.
So taking that in to consideration, I'm no longer worried about it, because I've thought it out rationally, I've written it down, crossed off the list.
Next up. So much shit I don't want to part with yet, but not sure I can pack up properly so if/when I do want it I can just say to mom. 'Hey mom, ship this box!' Half thinking about just getting rid of it, but I'm in the mindset where everything can go. That is likely to change, and $50 to ship a box of toys I love is well worth it.
Ok. Gonna try to pack them up better. Just gotta get some more packing materials.
Snake-Snake and Bernie went off to a new home.
I had hunted down Bernie's original owner, a friend of mine when I was 15.
Big time mormon. His dad was a bishop at their church, four brothers and sister.
Strangely enough he was allowed to play Magic The Gathering, and both he and his father played Diablo. Wow, these guys are cool I thought.
During those awkward early stages of my budding sexuality, I thought I was gay.
Now I wasn't attracted to my friend, god no. He was not a pretty person. But I had to know. The coolest religious family I know. How do they feel about this?
Last time he was over, we got on the subject, he seemed uncomfortable, we never talked again.
Tracked him down on facebook to see if he wanted to take Bernie back before I ended up just posting an add for them. He said no, so off to Kijiji I went.
Looking through, I found an add for someone saying tey will take unwanted reptiles.
Turns out he knew the guy who ran the herpetology club I went to when I was 12. In fact, he took some of the guy's snakes after he died and still had them.
So I know they're off to a good home. Kaeda is going to my old room mate's girlfriend. I'll take her over tomorrow.
So that is a load off my mind as well.
Almost every thing's packed and ready to ship, there's just little tidbits laying around that make it feel like I still live here.
I took down a lot of my decorations to make it feel more empty and I think it's working. Definitely had a little more of a push today than the rest of the week.
We'll see, I think I just needed to vent a bit.
The last few days of work were fun.
David Dentry came up from NY and took us all the the big pool bar on wing night. Something like an $1800 tab which he covered. Man that was a crazy night. Surprised so many people made it in to work the next day.
The yearbooks we put together came in so we were all passing them around and signing them like it was highschool again.
Then there was the farewell at the same poolbar last satruday. I drank a lot more that night, and again ended up leaving with McGuinnis. The girl in our group that everybody was drooling over (including myself) almost successfully pimped me out to two girls leaving after last call. They took me by the arm and dragged me, they seemed pretty serious. Apparently I don't look 25 and I think they both ended up being married and left me in front of the bar. Boo.
Not much happened after that, a bit of an awkward moment then cabbed home.
Going out to my dad's monday. Think I'll stay two weeks, give myself another two weeks to get things sorted out here before I leave. Gonna have a pub night goodbye party, or maybe a party in, or both. Who knows.
Oh, and to add to my troubles,I'm getting the lonelies. Not now please. I still have another month before I can even try to date.
Also, I have not shaved for a week. Not sure how I feel about it yet. Makes laying face down on my pillow feel weird.
Not as good as my last post I know. But I needed to get it out.
Which could be the cause of my jitters.
It's all finally setting in that I'm going. Starting to freak out a little.
I got in with the SC Canada West group. Found a girl who just moved to Van. Seemed to be struggling to get settled and to find other members in Vancouver.
So I go to her profile to make buddy-buddy. Her latest entry says she's out of money, hasn't been able to find work and is going back to Ontario... Encouraging.
Mind you, there were a few complications, and I am going over with about $3000 to live off off, with somewhere around a thousand to pay for shipping my junk and paying for my plan ticket.
But there's the thing.
What if I can't find work? I ship my junk then end up stuck, not able to pay to ship it back. Maybe I won't be able to sell it, I've blown 1K on getting it here. Now what?
Thinking rationally, I can't see myself being any better off here anyway. There would be no reason to come back. The house will hopefully be rented soon after I'm gone, or at least before my money would run out in BC. and I'd still have to find a job here.
So taking that in to consideration, I'm no longer worried about it, because I've thought it out rationally, I've written it down, crossed off the list.
Next up. So much shit I don't want to part with yet, but not sure I can pack up properly so if/when I do want it I can just say to mom. 'Hey mom, ship this box!' Half thinking about just getting rid of it, but I'm in the mindset where everything can go. That is likely to change, and $50 to ship a box of toys I love is well worth it.
Ok. Gonna try to pack them up better. Just gotta get some more packing materials.
Snake-Snake and Bernie went off to a new home.
I had hunted down Bernie's original owner, a friend of mine when I was 15.
Big time mormon. His dad was a bishop at their church, four brothers and sister.
Strangely enough he was allowed to play Magic The Gathering, and both he and his father played Diablo. Wow, these guys are cool I thought.
During those awkward early stages of my budding sexuality, I thought I was gay.
Now I wasn't attracted to my friend, god no. He was not a pretty person. But I had to know. The coolest religious family I know. How do they feel about this?
Last time he was over, we got on the subject, he seemed uncomfortable, we never talked again.
Tracked him down on facebook to see if he wanted to take Bernie back before I ended up just posting an add for them. He said no, so off to Kijiji I went.
Looking through, I found an add for someone saying tey will take unwanted reptiles.
Turns out he knew the guy who ran the herpetology club I went to when I was 12. In fact, he took some of the guy's snakes after he died and still had them.
So I know they're off to a good home. Kaeda is going to my old room mate's girlfriend. I'll take her over tomorrow.
So that is a load off my mind as well.
Almost every thing's packed and ready to ship, there's just little tidbits laying around that make it feel like I still live here.
I took down a lot of my decorations to make it feel more empty and I think it's working. Definitely had a little more of a push today than the rest of the week.
We'll see, I think I just needed to vent a bit.
The last few days of work were fun.
David Dentry came up from NY and took us all the the big pool bar on wing night. Something like an $1800 tab which he covered. Man that was a crazy night. Surprised so many people made it in to work the next day.
The yearbooks we put together came in so we were all passing them around and signing them like it was highschool again.
Then there was the farewell at the same poolbar last satruday. I drank a lot more that night, and again ended up leaving with McGuinnis. The girl in our group that everybody was drooling over (including myself) almost successfully pimped me out to two girls leaving after last call. They took me by the arm and dragged me, they seemed pretty serious. Apparently I don't look 25 and I think they both ended up being married and left me in front of the bar. Boo.
Not much happened after that, a bit of an awkward moment then cabbed home.
Going out to my dad's monday. Think I'll stay two weeks, give myself another two weeks to get things sorted out here before I leave. Gonna have a pub night goodbye party, or maybe a party in, or both. Who knows.
Oh, and to add to my troubles,I'm getting the lonelies. Not now please. I still have another month before I can even try to date.
Also, I have not shaved for a week. Not sure how I feel about it yet. Makes laying face down on my pillow feel weird.
Not as good as my last post I know. But I needed to get it out.
But don't even talk to me about the lonlies, though. Reading about canadian boys on the internets has been the greatest source of thrills for me in a long while. Oy!!
You're moving to an awesome part of the world. Have no fears whatsoever.