so.. i'm bummed. this awesome girl and i had a date and everything went awesome. every time i've mentioned hanging out the last week, she's given me a brush off. she still seems so very into me when we chat, and she is a single mom, but if ur too busy to hang out, wouldn't you at least tell me that? idk, i'm confused. so...
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it's too fucking hot. the AC is on and it's 89 in my house. this sucks ass!! weekend was alright though. didn't get to see Ronl, too busy this weekend. hopefully that will change this week.

i am the man. this is truth. i keep attracting and landing women who are so damn hot. I'm just the shit. Ronl is so hot and so amazing. Great kisser.... yeah. I'm excited!

I think i've had my first truly evil though. i used to think that i was a nice guy and couldn't harm a fly. right now i'm in such a cold murderous mood, i just don't know anymore. i took a percecet to calm me down and help deal with my pain (gout sucks). it has yet to kick in. i cooked some ramen noodles...
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so i guess my ex lied to me. she told me that she wanted to get her shit sorted, then try a relationship again. she'd call me. apparently she's in a relationship with some other dude. i'm a little hurt, a lot pissed that she apparently lied to me. but u know what, i got the closure i needed. that chapter of my life is...
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is it too much to ask to find someone who has chemistry with me and wants to be with me? it seems that way sometimes. oh well, time to be social and say 'fuck it' i don't need it!!

i am very, very tdrunk as a wirte this blog but you know what, i'm so fucking ove rmy ex. this girl who i've gone to school with and considered a good friend for the last few months, came over to my place and, me being the fucking drunk i am, hit on her not stop, but she was a great sport about it. i...
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i've come to a decision. i'm quitting culinary school. food may be my passion, but it won't pay the bills. i've 'spent' more money on my education in 1 year, learned next to nothing and gotten no return on it. i can go to school for 6 months and spend the same money and start making $50k/yr or more for my IT certs. why'd i...
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so.....i so badly want to tie her up and play her clit like a fiiddle with my tongue. i miss my love so much!!!! i'd love to know if she misses me or where i stand with her. ugh!!!

i don't understand. if you care for someone and that someone would hand you the world, why would you not be with that someone? she told me that she wants to be with me, yet isn't, i don't get it!!!