one of my friends really pissed me off last night. i'm sort of seeing my ex again. and i'm head over heals in love with her. she's not ready for anything, so we've kept things pretty middle schoolish. FRUSTRATING AS HELL CUZ I WANT HER SO BADLY. and i know she wants me. she got drunk and i had just enough to drink to make me reflective (i hate that crap) and she told me that she can't make any promises. The only promise i wanted is to not be in the friend zone. and while i'm far from that now, who's to say that's not going to change. that's my greatest fear, b/c i can never be just friends. i love her too much to think of her in that way.
so my friend, who actually set me and my ex up, was asking if we'd had sex yet and i told her the truth, no- we're taking things slow and seeing where things go. my friend's response is something like 'so how's your best friend'. it was almost like a gut punch. i've been very patient and i can be patient b/c i know she wants to really try to give us a shot. what hurts is that i can't wait forever, as much as i want to.
reflective today. not sure why. it isn't like i've gotten hints that nothing's going to happen, she just wanted me to understand that she can't make promises. and i get that. i wish i could do more than be the awesome patient guy. we have a date tonite, going to dave and buster's. i want to talk about this but i just can't b/c i feel like that would be pressuring her into something she isn't quite ready for.
so my friend, who actually set me and my ex up, was asking if we'd had sex yet and i told her the truth, no- we're taking things slow and seeing where things go. my friend's response is something like 'so how's your best friend'. it was almost like a gut punch. i've been very patient and i can be patient b/c i know she wants to really try to give us a shot. what hurts is that i can't wait forever, as much as i want to.
reflective today. not sure why. it isn't like i've gotten hints that nothing's going to happen, she just wanted me to understand that she can't make promises. and i get that. i wish i could do more than be the awesome patient guy. we have a date tonite, going to dave and buster's. i want to talk about this but i just can't b/c i feel like that would be pressuring her into something she isn't quite ready for.
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thank you for the add and the comment on my set, I hope to be on the FP soon
It makes me happy to see that there are still some good guys like you, patient and respectful. if your lady needs time, give her time, she will be grateful and moved.