I've been a good little consumer for the hollidays. Bought a bunch of dvds for myself: buffalo '66, baraka, koyaanisqatsi, powaqqatsi, killer klowns from outer space, and hot wet american summer. And some cd's: nirvana-nirvana, portishead-portishead, red hot chili peppers-by the way, radiohead-kid a, white stripes-white blood cells..not too eccentric but what the crap. Are cd prices going down? Cause All the cds I saw were below $15. Crazy. I bought some vegan books to try to set myself straight--I think I'll be able to do it.. I had my first veggie burger tonight 
. One small step for me one giant leap for mekind. And I bought a fedora--that I doubt I'll ever have the balls to wear in public--and a bennie..all, exept the cds, from amazon.com, which I am now hooked on. I don't know why I'm buying all this crap, I have no income and I'm going to have to pay for my classes and get books in about a month or so. I'm just not thinking too far into the future, which is a good or bad thing depending on how you want to look at it.
On a completely unrelated matter I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I got into art (painting/drawing), then music, started reading alot of philosophy, interested in cosmology, then there is psychology, recently photography, and now filmmaking..how completely fucked up is that? I have no direction..and it's not like I do one thing for a little bit and give it up either..I continue to do it, jumping back from one to another constantly. And then I read things saying "oh if you work on too many different things you'll never be good at anything" which is devestating--even though this concept isn't really based on any facts..instead it's just stated as the obvious--because I love all these things. It's my struggle against my mortality--to grasp everything in a certain field and to expand it requires the devoted work of a lifetime..I would need 10 lifetimes to get were I want. So to summerize my dilema: It's a choice between being mediocre at many things or good at one thing and the lingering feeling that I might have missed something and wasted a talent. I don't mean to be too self-involved but I find it difficult not to be.
I know I'm going to forget to write --/--/03 instead of 02 now.
Happy new years everybody
. One small step for me one giant leap for mekind. And I bought a fedora--that I doubt I'll ever have the balls to wear in public--and a bennie..all, exept the cds, from amazon.com, which I am now hooked on. I don't know why I'm buying all this crap, I have no income and I'm going to have to pay for my classes and get books in about a month or so. I'm just not thinking too far into the future, which is a good or bad thing depending on how you want to look at it.
On a completely unrelated matter I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I got into art (painting/drawing), then music, started reading alot of philosophy, interested in cosmology, then there is psychology, recently photography, and now filmmaking..how completely fucked up is that? I have no direction..and it's not like I do one thing for a little bit and give it up either..I continue to do it, jumping back from one to another constantly. And then I read things saying "oh if you work on too many different things you'll never be good at anything" which is devestating--even though this concept isn't really based on any facts..instead it's just stated as the obvious--because I love all these things. It's my struggle against my mortality--to grasp everything in a certain field and to expand it requires the devoted work of a lifetime..I would need 10 lifetimes to get were I want. So to summerize my dilema: It's a choice between being mediocre at many things or good at one thing and the lingering feeling that I might have missed something and wasted a talent. I don't mean to be too self-involved but I find it difficult not to be.
I know I'm going to forget to write --/--/03 instead of 02 now.
Happy new years everybody