Alright... things are looking more hopeful for the company, so I'm going to put in a journal entry that's not such a downer.
Here's a random poem I wrote when I had time to write such things:
Danger Girl
Dangergirl has super powers,
Super powers over me.
Dangergirl walks barefoot in the rain.
"Oh!" she shouts. "You nearly killed him!"
She crouches down as I stand frozen.
I stare at her head.
The rain slicks off her hair
And falls
Between her naked knees,
And plops between her bare feet.
Her hair is shiny,
Her legs are shiny,
And her toes are shiny.
The air smells musky,
Like wet leaves and grass.
She stares at the sidewalk
As I stare at her head.
I see Dangergirl. What does Dangergirl see?
She offers her hand under my chin,
Too close, too close to me.
A wet worm wiggles around
And tries to escape her open palm.
"You almost stepped on him!" she cries.
"I'm sorry," I say. "They're everywhere. I can't help it."
"Then we won't go," she says. "We just _can't_."
And so I stay. I stay with Dangergirl in the rain.
I watch her with her shoes in one hand
And worms in the other,
Crouching down and picking up worms.
I am wet because Dangergirl, the patron saint of worms and nightcrawlers,
Has super powers over me.
Dangergirl squeezes my knees.
"Are you ticklish there? Huh? *Huh*?" she grins.
I shake my head and try not to smile.
"You're *so* ticklish!" she squeals,
As if it was news to me.
I pull my knees to my chin and try to roll away.
But Dangergirl has got me.
She knows she's got me.
Dangergirl cries sometimes.
Sometimes, Dangergirl cries alot.
I want to hold Dangergirl when she cries.
And...
sometimes I do.
I want to cry with Dangergirl sometimes.
But...
I never do.
When the phone rings, I know it's not Dangergirl.
It used to be her. Always, always.
Then I used to wonder whenever the phone rang.
I don't wonder anymore. I'm used to it.
Just used to it.
I just know, now.
Dangergirl doesn't step on worms,
But she walks all over me.
I can't help it.
Sometimes, I don't know why,
I pull my knees to my chin.
I wish Dangergirl would hold me,
Or squeeze my knees.
I'm so sad
Because Dangergirl is gone.
I cry alone
Because I never cried with Dangergirl.
I cry alone
And my face is a mess.
I'm all wet, all wet,
Because I never told Dangergirl
What super powers she had over me.
Here's a random poem I wrote when I had time to write such things:
Danger Girl
Dangergirl has super powers,
Super powers over me.
Dangergirl walks barefoot in the rain.
"Oh!" she shouts. "You nearly killed him!"
She crouches down as I stand frozen.
I stare at her head.
The rain slicks off her hair
And falls
Between her naked knees,
And plops between her bare feet.
Her hair is shiny,
Her legs are shiny,
And her toes are shiny.
The air smells musky,
Like wet leaves and grass.
She stares at the sidewalk
As I stare at her head.
I see Dangergirl. What does Dangergirl see?
She offers her hand under my chin,
Too close, too close to me.
A wet worm wiggles around
And tries to escape her open palm.
"You almost stepped on him!" she cries.
"I'm sorry," I say. "They're everywhere. I can't help it."
"Then we won't go," she says. "We just _can't_."
And so I stay. I stay with Dangergirl in the rain.
I watch her with her shoes in one hand
And worms in the other,
Crouching down and picking up worms.
I am wet because Dangergirl, the patron saint of worms and nightcrawlers,
Has super powers over me.
Dangergirl squeezes my knees.
"Are you ticklish there? Huh? *Huh*?" she grins.
I shake my head and try not to smile.
"You're *so* ticklish!" she squeals,
As if it was news to me.
I pull my knees to my chin and try to roll away.
But Dangergirl has got me.
She knows she's got me.
Dangergirl cries sometimes.
Sometimes, Dangergirl cries alot.
I want to hold Dangergirl when she cries.
And...
sometimes I do.
I want to cry with Dangergirl sometimes.
But...
I never do.
When the phone rings, I know it's not Dangergirl.
It used to be her. Always, always.
Then I used to wonder whenever the phone rang.
I don't wonder anymore. I'm used to it.
Just used to it.
I just know, now.
Dangergirl doesn't step on worms,
But she walks all over me.
I can't help it.
Sometimes, I don't know why,
I pull my knees to my chin.
I wish Dangergirl would hold me,
Or squeeze my knees.
I'm so sad
Because Dangergirl is gone.
I cry alone
Because I never cried with Dangergirl.
I cry alone
And my face is a mess.
I'm all wet, all wet,
Because I never told Dangergirl
What super powers she had over me.
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itzie:
Hey! My b-day isn't actually until the 9th, but thanks! I don't really have too much of a plan yet. I do get the day off of work, though, which is always great!
itzie:
so far so good.... It's been about 3 weeks. I'm still using the patch. I'm gonna step down my dosage on Monday, and hopefully in another week or two I'll be fine without it. We'll see.