monsterjoe

I have a boss who really likes to needle people at times. One of his famous lines is "It's all about you Joe, isn't it."

The first couple of times he said this it got to me. I'm a nurse and I want to take care of people. I try not to be selfish. I try to look out for the other guy. I try to care. So, his insult worked. But because it worked I got to thinking about it over and over, and I've come to the conclusion that he's right.

I can't ever get out of my own head. Whenever I'm doing something good, there's always a portion of me that's doing it for selfish reasons. I'm trying to be "a good man" whatever that is. I'm trying to do "the right thing" whatever that is. I show kindness to people and strangers because I hate rude pricks. I try to be a good son, brother, uncle, friend, and lover on the one hand so that the people I love are taken care of and happy, but also, and very much because I want them to like me, love me, and depend on me. ME ME ME ME.

Get it?

So last night when I wanted to change shifts with another nurse and I went to talk to the boss, and he said "well, Joe I guess we'll do it. It's all about you huh?" I looked him in the eye and said, "Yes sir it is. Always has been and always will be."