Saturday Jun 11, 2011

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I wanna get to the point where I don't feel like other people have to take care of me all the time. I'm so irresponsible and chaotic and I don't know how to not be. I'm scatterbrained, incredibly messy, overly emotional, forgetful. I'm never on time, I lose/break everything, I'm terrible with money. I pretend like I don't, but I drink way too much and I guess I'm a little bit of a hypocrite about that. I just wanna be a respectable, together human being but I'm so blaaaahhhhh all over the place always. I'm hard to deal with. I attract chaos like a magnet. When it comes to relationships my mom has always said, "You need a babysitter, not a boyfriend." I hate that. I'm not without my good qualities- but I gotta reign this shit in. I wanna be self-sufficient, not a walking disaster.



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veganjihad:
bad advise.
get a skateboard, and bomb hills late at night, by yourself.
goddamn i miss pittsburgh.
catdad:
I used to be negative about using medication for depression and such, until the tricks I learned in therapy were no longer working to turn things around. That's when I realized that our brains don't always give us the chemicals we need to function properly. A couple years on anti-depressants finally got my life moving forward, because just getting through the day wasn't taking up all of my energy. A few years ago, I was diagnosed with mild ADD, and though I haven't gotten ideal results, I've found the sustained release Ritalin helps me deal with distractions better and get refocused on what I'm trying to do. There is an ADD group, but I'd definitely talk to your doc before listening to anything there.

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