monovox

I don't know if it's the time thing.
My last BIG relationship ended well over two years ago and I dated a few people since. It was nice and fun and all that stuff. I just think I'm too selfish- like with my time and stuff and so I push people away because I'm afraid of hurting them.. because that is what I seem to do.

but sooooo... christmas. Yeah, usually I love it. I love making presents, buying presents, spending time with friends/family... but this year I've been really weird. I haven't gotten into it at all. I hope it kicks in soon...

I'm jewish. Not really practicing.. but I never got to have an xmas. but I know that I get lonely around those fucking holidays. I feel like everyone has someone to cuddle with but me.

Sorry I didn't reply yesterday.. I meant to. I did finish my paper, btw. I slept from like 2-6 am. Then from 6-7 I wrote the last 5 pages.. and then from 7-9 I wrote another 7 page paper. I'm a writnig machine! weeeeeeeee! We can cuddle. I dig the new picture.