Shit, I sooo totally fucked up and all day I have been thinking that I had x-mas vacation starting saterday. 
So I was a week off...
My life has pretty much ground down to a lulled monotone drone. Punctuated by crawling out of bed in the morning, in the dark, and dragging my sorry ass home again 10 to 12 hours later, in the dark. I don't want to work so hard anymore. I want to be happy again. I want to believe that I can love again. I want to get off of the fucking anti-feeling pills. I want to find my muse and celebrate it to the limits of my potential. I'm finding myself again... slowly but surely pulling myself out of the self impossed cocoon that I had fashioned for myself to provide protection while my soul healed...
It's just as dark as I remember it.
Well, that's enough exposing myself for tonight. Tune in tomorrow when I tell ya'll about the wubby I sleep with.
Oh, I almost forgot. I am officially announcing Jackie as my first official crush in a long time.
So I was a week off...
My life has pretty much ground down to a lulled monotone drone. Punctuated by crawling out of bed in the morning, in the dark, and dragging my sorry ass home again 10 to 12 hours later, in the dark. I don't want to work so hard anymore. I want to be happy again. I want to believe that I can love again. I want to get off of the fucking anti-feeling pills. I want to find my muse and celebrate it to the limits of my potential. I'm finding myself again... slowly but surely pulling myself out of the self impossed cocoon that I had fashioned for myself to provide protection while my soul healed...
It's just as dark as I remember it.
Well, that's enough exposing myself for tonight. Tune in tomorrow when I tell ya'll about the wubby I sleep with.
Oh, I almost forgot. I am officially announcing Jackie as my first official crush in a long time.
I waited all night. Yes. That's right. And.. then I went on AIM to say hi.. and then.. you weren't there. And I'm writing a 15 page paper on the historical significance of jewish funerals.. and i need a break.. and um. .
then I read your journal.. don't sweat the work shit. you know why? because it will all end soon. we're all just cogs. then you get a break. then ill wear pigtails and a plaid skirt.. and we can play rodeo.. and i can ride you til you buck me off. haha can you TELL that I'm delirious.. did i even spell that right? WHO KNOWS.
i'm just a rag tag kid from miami who has no idea what shes talkin' about in the wee hours of the morning.