monovox

Weird day...

Well most of my days have been weird lately, just can't seem to find my equilibrium. Not really dealing with things well. Can't seem to get over some shit. Boy PMSing and all that shite. Blah.

I was awoken first thing this morning by a good friend (also an ex) calling, absolutely frantic that she had woken to find her cat listless and limp as a rag doll. She doesn't have a car to take him to the vet and is totally broke. This is a great cat that I really came to love. I even got over my cat allergies because I dug this cat. He had been feral when she got him and was kinda crazy... but I always end up loving the crazies (on so many levels).

cutting to the chase; after a grim prognosis and a 1500 dollar estimate just to stabilize him, with a very low chance of recovery, the tough decision was made to put him to sleep. It was peaceful, I did what I could to be there for her, but It fucking sucked.

Add this to my pre-exsisting mood and the cocktail that resulted is that I have been wandering around today in that general murky haze of sadness and loss.