2 weeks ago I left the business that I spent 11 years building.
I guess that it was actually almost 12 years ago that I started an ad agency with a partner and ran it as creative director. We made a good agency that was really different from the usual swimming with the sharks and we did it on our terms, with integrity, ethics and passion. But in the end... It was sucking my soul out through my toes.
Leaving was one of the hardest things I have had to do. Harder than the years of 12-16 hour days, the personal relationships that withered from neglect, the health issues from stress... It took me a very long time just to look in the mirror and say that this thing that I created is killing me and if I don't change something very soon, I will lose the opportunity to do so. leaving my business partner and friend was worse than any divorce, but it is over and here I am looking out into the abyss with fresh anticipation.
I have absolutely no idea what lies ahead other than spending time trying to find that personal creative center that was pushed aside from commercial whoring. Photography is something that is currently giving me a lot of joy. Other than that, I expecting that this numb daze that I am experiencing will continue for a while before before I get footing again. I actually think that I am handling it all pretty well at this point.
Right now I am in the desert of southern utah outside Zion's National Park visiting my dear friend Roslyn who got married the other day. It was a beautiful wedding. A tad bitter-sweet as I am best friends with her ex as well... life moves on though and I am very happy for her.
If you haven't been to southern utah, it is absolutly amazing. A very nice break from the torrents and flooding of portland. Here is a shot of my friends back yard:
My brother lives down here as well and I am getting some overdue time to spend with his family. Children more than anything rub in your face the neglect of time... I absolutly love my niece and was slapped with the fact that she is a over a foot taller and 3 years older than the last time I saw her. It just seems easier to forgive that lapse in time with adults... the changes don't often seem as dramatic i guess.
Well I suppose that I should get dressed. I am supposed to take a motorcycle ride up the canyon to shoot today. It should be a nice day for it.
I guess that it was actually almost 12 years ago that I started an ad agency with a partner and ran it as creative director. We made a good agency that was really different from the usual swimming with the sharks and we did it on our terms, with integrity, ethics and passion. But in the end... It was sucking my soul out through my toes.
Leaving was one of the hardest things I have had to do. Harder than the years of 12-16 hour days, the personal relationships that withered from neglect, the health issues from stress... It took me a very long time just to look in the mirror and say that this thing that I created is killing me and if I don't change something very soon, I will lose the opportunity to do so. leaving my business partner and friend was worse than any divorce, but it is over and here I am looking out into the abyss with fresh anticipation.
I have absolutely no idea what lies ahead other than spending time trying to find that personal creative center that was pushed aside from commercial whoring. Photography is something that is currently giving me a lot of joy. Other than that, I expecting that this numb daze that I am experiencing will continue for a while before before I get footing again. I actually think that I am handling it all pretty well at this point.
Right now I am in the desert of southern utah outside Zion's National Park visiting my dear friend Roslyn who got married the other day. It was a beautiful wedding. A tad bitter-sweet as I am best friends with her ex as well... life moves on though and I am very happy for her.
If you haven't been to southern utah, it is absolutly amazing. A very nice break from the torrents and flooding of portland. Here is a shot of my friends back yard:
My brother lives down here as well and I am getting some overdue time to spend with his family. Children more than anything rub in your face the neglect of time... I absolutly love my niece and was slapped with the fact that she is a over a foot taller and 3 years older than the last time I saw her. It just seems easier to forgive that lapse in time with adults... the changes don't often seem as dramatic i guess.
Well I suppose that I should get dressed. I am supposed to take a motorcycle ride up the canyon to shoot today. It should be a nice day for it.
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Miss Kira shat right by her bed today. Its because I stayed at my house last night, or something. HUGE PILE O SHIT! Little Miss Mastiff thinks her shit don't stink!
well, it does a little bit. plus I used the last of your paper towels to clean it up. Right as I was about done my pointing finger knocked around another HUGE TURD. So I had to use the last two towels to clean that. thank goodness i saved those two.
well, see you tomorrow.
have a safe flight!
L7
~Rye