monkeypox

ok its starting to take some real effort to sit down and find the time to update this here thingy here. its especially hard when i really dont feel like i have anything all that interesting or important to say. but i really do want to put forth the effort to remain at least somewhat active here.

it was good seeing some of the folks come out tonight. i must extend my sincerest apoligies to eve for haveing to go thru that little ordeal there. i hope the end result helped nulify some of the hardship.

and now a message to tawnya - i really wasnt trying to kill ya, but i must admit i sometimes really enjoy getting people drunk. i guess thats why im a bartender.

and thank you to everone who showed up. you really did help make my night more bareable.
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on a more personal note - im finding that i dont deal with pressure very well. this has become evident to me most recently in class earlier tonight. you see i tend to know the answers to questions more often when im not actually the one being asked. then when its my turn to solve some problem or situation - i draw a blank - even if i know the solution. this is something im going to have to work on and quickly. i think this stems from not being accustomed to being put on the spot. i guess ive always found ways to keep from attracting too much attention to myself and i never really had to perform under pressure. its in my best interest now to learn to remain calm and continure my train of thought throuout a situation even when i know others are evaluating my performance.