monkeypox

ok so i was present at the sgseattle get together tonight at lelani lanes. however i didnt really feel like i was there. some weird sort of social awkwardness wich was far too much to overcome. my silence and reclusiveness was not a responce to the present company, although honestly i didnt really get a chance to meet you - not really. and for sure you havnt met me. granted i am a bit of a wallflower, you have to believe me when i say, i am usually capable of holding a conversation. for some reason, i was paralyzed by the thought of a group of unfamiliar people and i have no idea why. i almost feel as if i should apoligize for my behavior, or lack there of. even though you were all very nice, i felt very alone and all i wanted to do was get back into my car and listen to elton john really loud. sorry if i came across as rude. i dont mind if you know i was insecure, but i dont want you to think it was anything else.