well i feel like im becoming more and more introverted every day. im not sure if my actions reflect this or not as i find myself in strange situations with strange people just in the hopes of keeping myself entertained. its a distraction i suppose while its happening, but mostly its depressing and kinda dangerous.
i hate that my mobility (and just about everything else) is hindered by my lack of funds. at times my life is exciting and i feel accomplished for creating a lifestyle wich enables me to live my dreams, and other times it feels so empty and worthless. i find my self enduring the passing of time untill the next bit of excitement or awsomeness happens. the up and downs are draining!
i really miss having a close friend to share activites with, or care about, or be cared for by. i do know lots of people - but it all seems to be superficial. maybe its my fault cuz i seem to keep my guard up.
i hate that my mobility (and just about everything else) is hindered by my lack of funds. at times my life is exciting and i feel accomplished for creating a lifestyle wich enables me to live my dreams, and other times it feels so empty and worthless. i find my self enduring the passing of time untill the next bit of excitement or awsomeness happens. the up and downs are draining!
i really miss having a close friend to share activites with, or care about, or be cared for by. i do know lots of people - but it all seems to be superficial. maybe its my fault cuz i seem to keep my guard up.
adore:
I really want to go but I don't have ten dollars to give Brooke for picking me up. I am super broke. 
I'd love to go though. Sorry. We'll meet! Don't worry! I'll make sure of it. 
I'd love to go though. Sorry. We'll meet! Don't worry! I'll make sure of it. 