Monday Aug 04, 2003

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sinus headaches are no fun anytime - but especially right now when i have "a long way to go, and a short time to get there."

time to put the hammer down and watch this bandit run...

http://www.visqueenonline.com
thistle:
have you read the world according to garp? it used to be one of my favorites. as far as dance music goes... christina doesn't seem to be much of a dancer to me, so i would go with kylie or maybe even missy elliot.

Sunday Aug 03, 2003

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im geting ready to head out of town for a little while. not sure if im gonna be able to check in here or not - i will try but lap top battery time will be at a premium im sure. for those of you who are interested check out http://www.visqueenonline.com
azura:
kiss

you're always fun to be around, depressed or not. well maybe you'll have while you're out on the road, cheer up a bit... I'm sure a few chili cheese dogs couldn't hurt whatever
freckle:
link's not working for me frown

Friday Aug 01, 2003

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nothing ever seems good anymore. even when its not really bad - it just never seems good. i hate everything! no thats not it i just dont seem to care anymore.
azura:
well how about sitting in a nasty bar and having a beer?

cause I want to do something tonight and that would be something.
as long as people aren't buying me random drinks again!

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enzo525:
Ya know, there are starving children in Africa!
Just a thought.
Maybe a chilli cheese dog would do ya some good!

Flash

Tuesday Jul 29, 2003

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uggh - sleep is for the weak - and i am one of the weakest people i know!
vastad:
positivity is effort.

tough lesson to chew but it is true. I work at it.

I just got tired of feeling sorry for myself. I got tired of taking other people's shit. I got tired of taking rejection personally. I had it up to 'here'.

SO I got happy to get back at all of it. biggrin

Of course it helps when life is going so well. tongue

****

It's not all hard work as it sounds. In a way, I am actively getting back at the things I cannot control. It's my way of not feeling powerless.

****

The greatest help to me was one I thought would have the least effect: Affirmations.

I have a little 'Blessing of Self-Worth' I got from Pyewacket printed out and on the wall next to my bed. Every night before I close my eyes for beddie-bye I read to myself in a clear, strong voice....like I really mean it.

Sure enough...I feel a strength within I never felt before. I feel like I can kick ass on a mental and emotional plane.

Feels good.

[Edited on Jul 29, 2003]
miss_piss:
meeting sometime?

Monday Jul 28, 2003

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its three thirty in the morning and i am starving - humm, i wonder why im so fat?
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freckle:
don't worry... they are kind of weird piercings, but i really love them!

i don't think they like me back though, right now they pretty much just hurt... frown
freckle:
ps all you need to do to see them is show up to something sometime, or plan something and i'll show up. easy!

Sunday Jul 27, 2003

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so tired must sleep - almost got arrested today by a cop with a mustach. imagine that!
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yellokitty:
Men with copstaches remind me of child molesters.
miao!!
enzo525:
Did he ask you if you wanted a mustach ride? wink

Friday Jul 25, 2003

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crack heads sell the darnedst things.

im haveing a bit of a moral delimia, or at least i feel is if i should be. one of my jobs puts me into contact with some pretty shady characters, and sometimes these budding capitolists come by with some pretty amazing deals on some pretty shiny toys.

now i now its wrong to purchase stolen goods. buying stolen...
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johnnyvonbondie:
hell, i like shiny stuff too!
can you get me a cool amp or rad guitar? biggrin
just kidding...kinda.

jesse
johnnyvonbondie:
death cab loves you no matter how you feel about them, avel! biggrin

dude, i SWEAR i see ben from the lashes EVERYWHERE! i can't seem to escape him! mad
it's not that i don't like him, i've talked to him at sonic boom, he's actually kinda cool...it's just he's such a goddamn scenester it makes me sick.
but then again if he's everywhere i go, what does that make me? hmmmmmmmmmm? whatever
anyway, you know him so you know what i mean.

jesse

Thursday Jul 24, 2003

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i feel kinda naked now.

im completely peircless now. i decided to take the jewlery out of my nipples after really injuring myself in a braclet related, flesh tearing, and quite painful, incident.

i havent warn jewlrey in my ears or noes for a number of years and i doubt i could get it back in with out repeircing.

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nimhly:
i am also pierceless now. well besides my ears but that doesn't count.

"Hi, I'm Nimhly, and I've been pierceless for about two weeks now."

"HI NIMHLY"
vastad:
weird

Monday Jul 21, 2003

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it is indeed a very sad day. and also scary. with the recent passing of my friend scotty and now the exploding hearts accident it seems we are being reminded more and more of our own mortality. please dont let these incidents keep you from living your lives to the fullest - but be smart about it. dont take unneccessary risks. an unforseen accident can...
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tawnya:
you're only as destructible as your superpowers wink

i hope you will be working the 24th. it's onnnnn. slideshow players! biggrin
pyronautica:
I want to see Avel again!!!

Saturday Jul 19, 2003

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so very excited - just bought tix to see turbo negro in baltimore at the otto bar on sept 14th. jenny says she is gonna fly me out to see the show. this is all very exciting indeed!

on another note, just switched from using earthlink browser to explorer and sg is totally a different world because of it.
azura:
nah, but i dont feel young anymore wink
johnnyvonbondie:
wouldn't it be funny if i wet on you too?!
huh? whadda you mean, NO?

jesse

Friday Jul 18, 2003

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i really do need to learn some computer skills. a friend came over the other day to help clean this box up and get my burner to work. he did a great job but when he left i couldnt figure out how to get back onto the internet. (begin laughing and looking down your nose at me now!) so all day yesterday i was without...
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hatefulerin:
haha, sounds good. now it's only a matter of tricking someone into giving us a ride up there (though i'll be passing through tonite, via greyhound. barf.)
azura:
i thought it was the bank of america... whatever

Tuesday Jul 15, 2003

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funny how the only times i feel like writing here - is when i feel like trash!
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azura:
I'll take your suggestion cause i have no idea where to start, seing as I haven't really done the 'bar scene' yet. whatever

Baltic it is... if there's cover then where do you think we should start?
tawnya:
a LOT of people do that. i can also tell you that i've noticed you get way fewer comments on happy posts. it's like if you're not sad, no one cares.

on a lighter note, you should try and work on the 24th of july. i'll be up at'cher bar cause i MUST see the trachenberg family slideshow players! i'm not trying to mooch drinks or tix in, i'd just like to know that i'll have the most awesome bartender i can, and get to see you. biggrin
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