monicathedino

The monotony is clawing my eyes out and I ready to kick it's ass.

i want a tattoo and i want to travel and i want to fix my piece of shit car and i want this and i want that. I'm sick of a piece of ugly green paper holding me back from what i want to do. I want to dye my hair the most outrageous color in the store and chop the hell out of it and i want to rip all of my clothes to shreds and start all over again. I want to get my first set shot so i can get this going.

I need gas money for my dad's gas-sucking suv with no ac in 90 degree weather in march, which i am stuck driving for the time being. I need to buy books for my tests. I need to be doing my Bio project. I need to pay the rest of the money for my tests. I need to clean. I need to study for French. I need to call my college counsler and check on my paperwork. I need to mail my taxes. I need to get my shot records. I need to renew my tags next month.

I am thinking about how horrible tomorrow will be at school after a kid killed himself over spring break. I am sitting here staring at the clock realizing I've only 5 and a half hours til i have to get up. I am stressing everything i can't control and not looking at what i can do something about.

I think i just need to look at what i can do and stop giving a flying fuck about stuff i have no control over. I think i will just sit here and watch old pirate movies while sewing. Gnite.