So Lesley almost invited me to join her on her blind date......
yeah.. Should i be like wierded out? She chose to skip it to hang out with me, though because we had made plans first. I was supposed to go with her to the same fucking bowling alley ive been ditched at before. I really really hate that place its a bordello of white trash and drunken one night stands. So she called from my house telling her friend that her car broke down and that she was at her house..... So does this mean Lesley likes me? or like what? Im always being fucked with this way, seriously. Ive been so stressed out lately... hahahaha ( i bet you are like, when isnt he stressed out) ive been seeing floaters in my eyes at work and outside so i was having panic attacks all day yesterday. so i ran up to the Vision Center and had a nother Panic Attack. The doctor told me that they were more of an Annoyance then something serious, but it didnt comfort me, so im getting my eyes checked out tomorrow at about 2pm and im scared of course. God im a fucking pussy...... Im afraid of going blind, then im afraid of going further in debt to the damn doctor.... even when i get insurance im not going to have fucking Optical. Then i have a dentist appointment on Wednesday. and im nervous about that too... When does it end?? I really need like zoloft or something i hate worrying every second of the day... Im worryed about worrying myself sick or having more panic attacks... Im so pessimistic. i need a hug. lol any suggestions? and now you know why my name is Disturbed_13