mondrianblue

Well yeah life kinda sucks. i have to get my fucking wisdom teeth out, and i dont have fucking Health Insurance, and i already have a fucking hard time making fucking goddamn ends meet, and plus now i have that stupid credit card debt, lol soon to be medical dept, soon to be school debt. i fucking got paid on thursday after i bought my books , i went to the dentist and had to deal with that shit, im so fucking pissed/scared, i hate surgeries of any fucking kind. im so getting knocked the fuck out, fuck that IV, so i can look forward to that in about March, WOO FUCKING HOO!!!!. someone fucking shoot me in the motherfucking head please. i have like 60 dollars untill next payday. id have more but i bought my dad a TV for christmas for his shitty apartment, he was watching a 13in so i got him a 27 it fucked my bankaccount up, but the smile it made on his face was all worth it . i wish i could get him more. he couldnt afford to get me anything this year for christmas but thats nothing new, my mom and dad have been poor since the devorce and my dads breakdown, and successive breakdowns, hes bi-polar scizophrenic. its pathetic i make more then my mom and my dad, and i work at fucking walmart, and get like 14k a year. im really really thinking of killing myself, i mean i dont know what to do, im always going to be in debt. ill never succeed because i dont have the money, and my pos car is slowing breaking down, and with all this fucking crap going on i cant even get a crappy used car, and afford insurance, with fucking school supplies. i hate this shit, what did me and my family ever fucking do, to be fucking shit on? i mean what the fuck? huh? im fucking sick of this motherfucking shit, both my parents hate their lives, and i hate mine, so does my brother. we dont fucking ask for much. and we dont get it either. fuck christmas. fuck this shit.

Update, *********
oh yeah my dads car is now out of commision, lol oh this is awesome, now im really saying WTF!?! damn at least he has a new tv