mondrianblue

hows everyone today? im alright finally got around to updating this. I saw the village on friday it wasnt really what i expected though it was alright. nothing special by a long shot. today ive been wasting time by watching a bunch of movies. i started out with Pulp Fiction, then Pee Wee's Big Adventure, and i finally got around to watching the Blue Collar Comedy tour, my friend gave it to me like 4 months ago and i never watched it because it seemed like to white trash for me. But i heard good stuff about Ron White from another friend and when i was cleaning, i came across it today, it was alright, though i only really liked the Ron White stuff, the others were kinda stupid, expecally Larry the Cable Guy, i mean i fucking see guys like that at work everyday so it wasnt funny at all. My Mom is bitching that she cant get a job and shit. and that my little brother wont get his Social Security checks anymore so shes pissed off at us, which is shit, my little brother should have to fucking feel bad for exsisting. that is such shit. Me and Him didnt ask to be born, shes the fucking person that brought us into being. and its not our fault she didnt graduate high school and went to college to get at decent job, she fucking had me( im the oldest) when she was 26. So shes been saying that we are going to have to sell some of our stuff, my stuff is what i have bought for myself with my own fucking money from my job. my mom hates the fact that i have a job, and i graduated high school and im attending a community college, paying with the help of federal aid and grants, mostly all by myself. she never got me anything when i was growing up anyway. and i get stuff for my brother, and take him out to eat and stuff. lol my Mother just asked me right now, if i could buy my brother a birthday cake, (his birthday is next week). of course! i love my brother. I feel so bad for him, his shy and shit, doesnt really talk to anyone besides me and like his 2 friends. he doenst talk with girls at all. hes like i was in high school. err....... 250.00 in the bank untill the 12th. well thats good to get him a cool birthday cake and a present, i know mom wont get him anything, though she always finds money to buy fucking cigerettes, and fucking junk food, i swear she doesnt buy like regular food, its always in a box and its always instant, not soup or stuff in a can, fucking in a box. well it seems for the moment my savings to get out of this shit hole are going to be depleted. but ill try my hardest to make my brothers 18th birthday a good one, hopefully he wont be suicidal like i usually am on most of my birthdays. it will just be me and him, growing up we never had birthday parties with friends. Well sorry to leave on such a bad note. but that happens somedays doenst it?
untill next time