im giving up on social interaction all together anymore, im not trying to make friends with people around here. its simply not ment to be. when i move to cali ill try. people around here are so out of my understanding, and i am out of theirs everyone is hung up on them selves and physical beauty, lust and gradification.
im am striving for something real. im looking for purpose. i want to evolve from this demention. i want to be one with the universe. i want to speak with intellectuals, Angels. Saints. Higher Beings, Spiritual Masters, i want to help humanity , not find someone at a party to get drunk with and then take them home to fuck.
i want to be happy being happy as i am. i cant change what i am. so why try. i am this way for a reason. it is to serve some purpose.
i want to someday be apprecated. i want alot. and im prepared to realize everything.