mondrianblue

today went well though i got to see some ones special someone when i went to my car in the parking lot, which really really bugged me. i was like "ok......." plus i was doing so well at forgeting she even existed untill she came up behind me like "dave!!!, dave!!!" and all she says is "whats up?" i simply replied "im going back to work thats whats up" and then shes like "yeah..." turns and walks off, as do i, now constantly thinking about her, about how i used to go over to her house and watch movies with her. nothing ever happened but i fell for her. im stupid i dont know why i even did. its just her eyes i guess. and now i keep thinking about how i told her how i felt, then she ditched me in public for some strange dude, then like now shes doing stuff with this new guy.. whats the matter with me? why am i not wanted by anyone? why am i always cursed to be alone? nothing ever works out. it always fades so fast that i sometimes wonder if there ever was a flame to begin with.
any advice for me? any comforting words? ........ i didnt think so.