mondrianblue

I saw spiderman 2 yesterday with some friends it was an awesome movie. it was actually better then the original. i didnt really feel alright when i went home, its an hour drive to there house. and they always seem to fight when im there and they want me to stay longer. their fighting makes me feel really really bad, because im way to sensative and epathtic. so on the way home i was driving by my self and i was thinking about the movie. how peter finally told mary jane the way he feels. and in occurance with the girl that always thinks im blowing her off, which is really really far from the truth, i wanted to write her a letter. a letter that says excatly how i feel about her. how i cant call her because im too scared to. (in my mind i know i will fail, however with this thoughts controlling what i do, i have no other option but to fail) i want to tell her that im not blowing her off. that i feel so strange when she looks at me from afar. when she smiles i melt inside longing for a chance to spend time with her. to tell her how i feel. i hate the fact that the only time i can talk with her is in the 10-12 seconds allowed when i go through her line. i hate having to end mid conversation because the guy behind me is in a hurry. i dont like seeing her sad eyes as i walk away. i want her to know, though ive told her. i want her to see me. that way if she rejects me i can move on, and not dwell on it anylonger.
should i write this down for her? what should i do?