mondrianblue

so i get to work and find out im 6 hours early, oh this sucked so i get to go in at 3 instead of 9 today, wish i would of knew that last night, i had to send a friend away around 12 so i could get some sleep, i hadnt seen him in like forever and we were going to get together with my other friends to see Farenheit tonight. i hope we can catch a late show tonight, but around this stupid ass area, every thing shuts down at 10, its soooooo fucking amish, i hate it here, i cant wait until i move. Me and my friend Kris have a dream of moving to San Fransisco along with his girl friend in a couple of years. that area is my calling, but for the moment im trapped in this shithole. im totally going to give up on trying to find a girl here. im just going to wait till Cali. girls around here are fucked. and im not cool to these girls because they like white trash fucking car guys that wear wife beaters and trucker hats that have Nascar on them. the girls i like around here are the fucking "Pop"punk girls, but they are all fucking party girls that fuck anything that walks, lol except me. you know what i dont want that shit anyway, lol i would like to remain disease free. Ive been fucked over so many times that i started to believe it was me, all of this shit that people around here do to me, is because there is something wrong with me, but then one of my friends finally pulled me aside and said, "i hate seeing this, all this stuff, all these mindfucks you endure from other people, girls mostly has fucked your self confadence." "Please dont think there is something wrong with you. because that so not true, its this area, your not ment for it, your not being nurtured, your neglected here. i see you try you hardest, and thats honorable, but the saying try to grow where you are planted is kinda bullshit here. your different then these fucking white trash imbred peices of shit, you are ment for a Big City where you can be nutured by people like you." in my Natal Chart doing Locational Astrology San Fransisco would be my Destiny Point basically. and my friend who is like mid fiftys and a very talented soul/spirtiual guide. double checked and she thinks that this would be the best thing for me. my Location chart here is totally fucked it has me constantly falling for these stupid ass girls that are fucked up with mental problems and they think that fucking strangers is the only way to right whatever wrong befell them and that burn me in the end im always like "this sting is familiar" with there poision laced knife if my fucking heart. and im totally agreeing that this place is not where im going to grow old im not ment here at all, im so sick of seeing that the majority here is white trash and white/racist upperclass peices of shit. that think Nascar is the Best Sport ever!!!. Fuck this im so out of here when the chance arises im fucking gone. but in other news things our fine i got 2 books yesterday both gifts which was awesome i recieved Ann Rices' The Witching Hour from a girl i know at work. and I got Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk. i cant wait to read them, but at the moment im reading Blood and Gold by Ann Rice.
well, thats all for now. Dave.

disturbed_13 fact of the day. my numerology life path number is 22 and my expression number is 11.