mondrianblue

hmmm downloaded new Yahoo MSNger finally. some one talk to me!!! other then that nothing new at the moment, i got some new fake plastic flowers for my goddess altar peice, being that it was summer solistic yesterday, and her color scheme had been mute and withered. still hung up on Alexx even though i wish i wasnt though, i feel sorry for her, because she seems to know a lot of people but she doesnt have many true friends. though i want to be a true friend to her, and be more then that. ive been being a dick to her when i see her, because she kinda ignored me in any occasion to hang out with her "friends". it really sucks because the times when i have been a dick to her at work she has looked soooooo good and so beautiful and i just want to be like " you are sooooo beautiful" so even though ive wanted to tell her that id like to be her friend and that we should hang out a lot more. though its uncomfortable and wierd because it seems to me she has to be drunk or stoned to hang out with me. i asked her if she was going to warped tour, and she was like im not going to have money to go. I soooo wanted to be nice and be like " i could pay for your ticket and you could pay me back later" but ive done that in the past with girls and they usually fucking screw me over. though she seems different. some how she seems different, she hides things away in side like i do i can see that, and i want to know what they are. though when im around her i kinda act differently, i cant talk about certian stuff to her because i dont want her to think im wierd, though she probably thinks im a boring person, when in reality im far from it. any advice guys or girls? please leave me some comments on what i should do , and what i shouldnt.
Dave.