mondrianblue

could someone like help me pull this fucking spear out of my chest?? i would be greatful. so i call Alex to see if she would like to do something tonight, she says yes , then she has the idea of going to southbend to smoke pot, and ditches me because im only 20 and cant get into the bar. and tell her that i really like her, and burnt her a cd of lovesongs, actually it was just Me first and the Gimmie Gimmies. "take a break" i was like listen to song 2 which is the cover of "hello" and she was like "awwwww" and gave me a big hug before she left. so i go home , then she out of the blue calls me and wants me to meet her at the bowling alley. i think she hear the song and loves me, wrong we bowl, then she goes to the bar and starts talking to this jockular drunk tan blonde guy and comes back to me and says "so you going home?" and i was curtious and of course i said yes, took off my shoes put on my regular ones, walked out to the car, pulled out on the road and screamed at the top of my lungs untill i got home (10miles btw) but when i left she asked if i wanted to hang out with her saturday night i said of course. but now im sick to my stomach,
if someone could cheer me up that would be great but i know no one reads this and no one cares.....
dave.