well i started the day as crappy as ever, then during my first break the book i was reading fell open and a quote really stuck out "In the cup of a premature happiness he drinks the bitter dregs of punishment behind the bolts of a prison" a divination by Cagliostro. which can only be taken as a bad omen, so i get home and see my "friends" in my room using my computer to fufill there needs, and then promptly leave when they have gotten what they wanted. And my "friend" kay doesnt hang out with me any more cuz im not cool enough i guess, and shes making new friends "but im not forgeting my old ones" she says. but i still feel abandoned, ive realized i have no friends at all besides my brother, oh well fuck them. im not worth knowing but oh well, which brings me to my christmas wish, i want a best friend, a true friend that i can count on, someone who actually give a fucking shit about me, some one that just cares, and will spend time with me no matter what. but like everything in my life i ever wanted be it a material object or love or affection, i wll be denied it.
