2/7: "What inspired you to become a SuicideGirl?" (in your case, a Hopeful!)
I've been in love with Suicide girls since I was a young girl. I couldnt wait to be old enough to have an account, but I'd follow other forms of SG social media. The girls were always so diverse and gorgeous.
As an artist, the female body is one of the most admired pieces of art, found in nature, and the most fun to draw. All women are naturally sensual and out bodies come in so many different shapes, sizes, colors, and curves. And a community like SG embraces all the different kinds of beauties. The female body is a miraculous and powerful vessel.
Shortly after I turned 18, I got pregnant with my first child. My body went through so many changes. Stretch Mark's, wider hips, extra weight, less perky breasts. I had a hard time with my self esteem after seeing how different my body was. I drove myself crazy trying to get back in shape on top of my full time tattooing schedule, and being a new mom. No diet or workout could get my body back to what it was when I was 18, and it took me a long time and alot of soul searching to accept that.
On top of all this, I was in a toxic relationship and my SO at the time was extremely controlling. He hated the idea of me doing photo shoots and would freak over me even doing shoots in a bathing suit.
Eventually, I left that relationship which already did wonders for my self esteem. I started dating my now husband, who helped me learn to love my body the way he does. He has always supported my dreams, and he loves when I do photoshoots. No matter how risque. As long as he gets some prints for his little shrine of me he keeps in our closet 😂
I now admire my body, including all of its flaws. I'm empowered by its ability to carry life and breastfeed.
Joining the community of SG is also great for my self esteem. To see all these women lifting each other up, and admiring each other's bodies in such positive light, is something you dont find anywhere else.
I'm so excited to be a part of this. And hopefully become a Suicide Girl some day.
Here's a photo of me at 19, doing my first shoot after leaving a controlling relationship. I'll never forget how empowering that felt. It was with the same photographer (Eleutheria photography) who eventually did my first hopeful set. It's also really exciting to see how much her work has grown in the last 4 years
