molle

i drank too much iced coffee today!!
and i have a wicked bad headache
stressful few days
and lately ive been using this blog as a place to bitch and complain haha
BUT
im starting legit counseling on wednesday which im kinda excited forr.
this has been a shitty year for me so its nice to finally have someone to vent to, even if its their job.
Ive been feeling pretty self destructive this past weekk.
Drinking too muchh, taking pills blahblah. too get high
Ive been wanting to cuttt, but ive been doing good for 6 months so i dont wanna break that streak.
Just really anxious and stressed out I guess
hopefully starting therapy will starttt
even though i hate therapists and i never wanna talk to them for some reason haha
maybe ill actually start taking it seriously!
i hate being depressed and writing all this crap in my blog complainin
im really notta miserable person just lately i have beenn.
IT'LL CHANGE SOON I PROMISEE <333
once they start giving me uppers haha
even though then ill be a overmedicated zombie.. ughh.
i just wish weed was legal haha
and i could smoke it everywheree.

ive been thinking bout becomin a hopeful on this site
my gay friend tony has been pushing it very hard hahaha
so hopefully one dayyy!!

anywayss
taking a bath to calm down from my stressful day
and eating chinese take out with my mommm
love you guyssss <333