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I sit here listening to adverts for Mother's Day.

It's 9 years this year and it's still bizarre. One minute my sweet best friend is frail and giggling, quite honestly the light of my life. Within the space of a week she is taking her last breath.

God girl, I miss you more than you will ever know. And as this bloody mascara runs and stings my eyes I never envisaged sitting here alone without you to hold, to share, to speak to.

I wouldn't turn the clock back, I now have a little brother I adore. But I miss you Shine. I miss you.

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Feeling positive after a good sob for possibly the first time this year. I have:

Booked in at Original Skin in Tottenham for my wee venom piercings

Bought a Beastie Boys ticket for their Paris gig

Booked my holiday for Hellfest, also in France

HURRAH!!