moirae

Irrational Fears:

So over the last couple of years I have had very little to be happy about in regards to romance and love. Mostly by my own fault, but the situation has certainly been exacerbated by a handful of individuals. The cold fish, the user, the manic depressive, and the game player

Being the salty, jaded asshole that I can be, Ive come to expect something bad at the beginning of every relationship. I always anticipate a major catastrophe, or some little nuance in behavior that will destroy the brief moment of bliss that I occasionally find myself in.

After the wonderful date I had last weekend, I found myself dwelling on what terrible short coming might bring me down from this state of contentment. Without any logical reasoning, I had this nagging feeling that she was going to be a terrible kisser. Certainly not as much of a deal breaker as oh say. emotional instability, or kleptomania. But after being in a long term relationship with a mediocre kisser, it has become something I cherish and adore.

Despite my fear of impending disappointment I asked her over to hang out last night. To keep the story short, I was about as wrong as could be. I havent felt so excited after something as simple as a kiss in a long time. And Im crossing my fingers that everything else progresses as happily. Or at least getting a chance for one more touch with those heart melting lips

So what irrational fear holds you back from experiencing something exciting in your life?