--trivial emo bullshit warning--
Once again I have successfully managed to ruin any possibility of having something to be happy about in my love life... or lack thereof. All without saying a word.. WooHoo!
Over the years I have somehow inadvertently honed my skills at attracting females easily, and then immediately turning them off without any effort. I'm in complete awe at my ability to create a complete 180 degree change of feelings even after a couple of wonderful dates. While getting rejected by somebody I barely know doesn't bother me very much. I tend to get really hung up on the painfully obvious fact that I function very poorly on a normal social level. This tends to completely erode what confidence I have for future relationships. Chalk it up to being a very shy child, or the fact that I spent most of my high school years working, instead of going to parties, dating, or doing any number of social activities that would have prevented me from becoming the salty, condescending bastard that I am now. While all of this gives me great fodder for my artistic endeavors, I'm a little tired of it, and would love nothing more then to have a stable relationship once again. I fall in neither the push-over nice guy category, or the uber confident alpha male category. So I guess somewhere in between is a realm that doesn't sit well with many women. Maybe life would be a lot easier if I threw independent thought right out of the window, start watching MTv Spring break programming, and wore more hip hop inspired fashions. A good long binge drinking session, or a crayon up the nose ala homer simpson to numb the brain. Maybe then I could chase after the hot bimbo two apartments over without a care in the world, and no self-conscious strings holding me back. I am my own worst enemy.
Any thoughts, amusing anecdotes, or words of encouragement are welcome.
I'd sell my soul to break this cycle.
Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, Im tired and I, I want to go to bed
Once again I have successfully managed to ruin any possibility of having something to be happy about in my love life... or lack thereof. All without saying a word.. WooHoo!
Over the years I have somehow inadvertently honed my skills at attracting females easily, and then immediately turning them off without any effort. I'm in complete awe at my ability to create a complete 180 degree change of feelings even after a couple of wonderful dates. While getting rejected by somebody I barely know doesn't bother me very much. I tend to get really hung up on the painfully obvious fact that I function very poorly on a normal social level. This tends to completely erode what confidence I have for future relationships. Chalk it up to being a very shy child, or the fact that I spent most of my high school years working, instead of going to parties, dating, or doing any number of social activities that would have prevented me from becoming the salty, condescending bastard that I am now. While all of this gives me great fodder for my artistic endeavors, I'm a little tired of it, and would love nothing more then to have a stable relationship once again. I fall in neither the push-over nice guy category, or the uber confident alpha male category. So I guess somewhere in between is a realm that doesn't sit well with many women. Maybe life would be a lot easier if I threw independent thought right out of the window, start watching MTv Spring break programming, and wore more hip hop inspired fashions. A good long binge drinking session, or a crayon up the nose ala homer simpson to numb the brain. Maybe then I could chase after the hot bimbo two apartments over without a care in the world, and no self-conscious strings holding me back. I am my own worst enemy.
Any thoughts, amusing anecdotes, or words of encouragement are welcome.
I'd sell my soul to break this cycle.
Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, Im tired and I, I want to go to bed
hope things get better for ya...