"Find it at the further reaches
Smelling like a rose or peaches
Crippling the hardest pig nose shell
Find it when I look in your eyes
A little spark that would be kingsize
The mirror does no justice to your spell
Evil has never loved you as I do"
I feel like I've fallen off the face of the earth in the last couple of weeks. I realized this weekend that I hadn't said a word to some of my best friends in over a month. As well as my parents, and assorted other individuals who are usually a regular part of my life. Some of it just out of chance, some of it due to my mood.
And part of it's because I've got this burr in my ass to finally make an effort to do something with my photography. I've been saying that for at least a year now, but have yet to actually move on it. Not out of laziness, but out of my own perfectionist tendencies. I never feel like I'm ready. I constantly feel like I need to get a few more shots for the portfolio. Try a new technique, or some other pursuit to improve my craft.
I received an enthusiastic message about a very big opportunity a week or so ago. While it made me excited I'm also kind of feeling like it's going to fall to the wayside like most other opportunities that have popped up over the last year or two. Maybe it will, maybe it won't. I'll know in a couple of days. But as I sat in front of my computer for hours on end this weekend preparing for the potential meeting, I decided on something. If it doesn't materializeFuck em. My work is better then them. If they don't want it; then I'm going to knock on the next door. I've seen too much shitty work put up on a pedestal, and right now I want to kick that pedestal right out from under their blind asses.
Through all my work over the last week Kage has been by my side to keep me sane. She's cooked me two amazing dinners this week, and even stood next to me and fed me ice cream while I was scanning more negatives. If that doesn't deserve an award I don't know what does.
Here's to blindly following ones aspirations.. once more into the breach.
Smelling like a rose or peaches
Crippling the hardest pig nose shell
Find it when I look in your eyes
A little spark that would be kingsize
The mirror does no justice to your spell
Evil has never loved you as I do"
I feel like I've fallen off the face of the earth in the last couple of weeks. I realized this weekend that I hadn't said a word to some of my best friends in over a month. As well as my parents, and assorted other individuals who are usually a regular part of my life. Some of it just out of chance, some of it due to my mood.
And part of it's because I've got this burr in my ass to finally make an effort to do something with my photography. I've been saying that for at least a year now, but have yet to actually move on it. Not out of laziness, but out of my own perfectionist tendencies. I never feel like I'm ready. I constantly feel like I need to get a few more shots for the portfolio. Try a new technique, or some other pursuit to improve my craft.
I received an enthusiastic message about a very big opportunity a week or so ago. While it made me excited I'm also kind of feeling like it's going to fall to the wayside like most other opportunities that have popped up over the last year or two. Maybe it will, maybe it won't. I'll know in a couple of days. But as I sat in front of my computer for hours on end this weekend preparing for the potential meeting, I decided on something. If it doesn't materializeFuck em. My work is better then them. If they don't want it; then I'm going to knock on the next door. I've seen too much shitty work put up on a pedestal, and right now I want to kick that pedestal right out from under their blind asses.
Through all my work over the last week Kage has been by my side to keep me sane. She's cooked me two amazing dinners this week, and even stood next to me and fed me ice cream while I was scanning more negatives. If that doesn't deserve an award I don't know what does.
Here's to blindly following ones aspirations.. once more into the breach.
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brocklee:
i raise my blades up for you my friend!
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