mogmagus

it rained all the way to work today.
it rained all the way back home.

I now know why.

it was because she was hurt.
and i was oblivious.

I didn't realize the price.
and now I do.

I'd rather still be hurting
than have hurt.

I would say I don't deserve to live.
but i do.

i deserve to spend the rest of my life remembering the price I will probably end up paying for some damn enlightenment....

i wont ever be able to make up for this.
i wont ever live this down.

she's in pain.
shes's hurting.

its my fault.
dear god i want to die...

what the fuck do you do when you've done the worst thing in your entire moral code?

what do you do?

what do you do when you realize everything is out of your control and all you want is to make amends.

i'm going to hell and i hope i do.

I've just fucking earned it.