I had a great time last weekend it was awesome... I'm still trying to put bits and pieces of it back together. I think I'll hold off on the alcohol for a while. I'm not going to drink heavily. It got a little out of control and I need to save money anyway. But I'm still up for trivia, if it is still on. I... Read More
yay glad to hear you enjoyed yourself and loved meeting you!
had a little reply ready (i've typed it *twice* now, fucker of a computer kept screwing up, but probably for the best as I get more to the point each time) in regards to your previous post.
short story, went through the same experience from the female side of things about six months ago with a partner who had the same feelings as you, but was quite vocal about them (cruelly at times).
she's got a shitload of regret, not only because she can't have kids again but it's so much more than you ever imagined and there is a such a grief and natural feeling of loss you can't describe. Go to any abortion sites with stories and read the thousands of responses of regret.
the one single factor in retrospect i wish had been done differently, and I think she really wants is just someone to share the grief. not the guilt, and the anger, but just someone to hold (even though you can't) but to cry with. you know how if a mutual friend dies and everyone bands together? just that need to share with someone else who had half an investment in the baby.
say it to her, how you felt, how it could have been, not cruelly, but that it still hurts you but you can share a grief side of it.
as to eveything else, i guess thats for you to deduce but I hope you work it out and time heals eventually. patience i guess.
My Pop's in hospital still. He's had some more strokes. I'm really worried about him. I'm going up to Brisbane tomorrow to visit him. I don't know what to say about it. His memory is starting to go then coming back. Scarey stuff. ........
I kinda realised I need to get a roommate despite my love of living on... Read More
Roommates are the shiznit!! Well, mine are at least!!!
And yeah, I hear your pain about the Anita Blake series. In my humble opinion, it becomes utterly pointless and rather painful after Blue Moon (although Narcissus is pretty good too).
The new year started on a good note which wasn't hard considering how bad the year before ended but I learnt the value of friends and family. They helped me stop the selfdestruction I usually go through after a terrible breakup.
This month does just keep on getting better and better. I hoping to stay down here on the coast and settle in. Actually make... Read More
Hey man things are sounding good!
This makes me a happy bird!
You're welcome to hang out anytime you like, we're always up to something. Just make sure someone in the above list has your number, so you don't miss out!
It was great meeting everyone. I did enjoy myself. I would like to thank those who got my friend home. Thank you!! I apologise for the way he acted. It was true though that you are normal people. You weren't scarey. Thank you for the great night!
Well this week has been interesting and it ended with a bang to say the least. I broke out of my shell thanks to the red wine last night. It reminded me of the old days when i used to drink blood. Boy those were some confusing times but I felt a slight empowering effect that it used to give. This was an awards night... Read More
(and srsly, we're not scary; i've never felt more at ease in a group of people than this group ... plus there'll be some non-SG friends there ... y'know... normal folk)
Went to summa field dayze. Had the most fun I've had in a while. Acted like an idiot. Met fun people. Was off my face. What can I say? People are great when they're your friends and you know you fit in with them
I just saw something on TV actually on the subject of family and relationship decline in western civilization. It blew my mind because it was my thoughts exactly on the subject especially when they said that we've adopted the idea of relationship disposal. If it's not working we throw it away. It's really sad when you think about it.
Been partying for the past 3 days and I'm going to stop. I've got work tomorrow.
I had a great time with family and friends. Last year did end up on a downer but I am picking myself up and dusting off the pain.
I'm going to Summa Field Dayze next weekend. Time to Party!!!
Chicken!!!
Argh!! Bitch!! Just as I start to feel like I'm moving on and I've crawled my way out of this depressing shit!! Someone decides to send me a message like "call me" at eleven at night when I'm asleep!!! So I call and then she pretends she sent that message 2 hours ago!!! Argh!!! Now I'm thinking about her again and I can't get any... Read More
Journal Vomit 
... 18.45 at the D&P. No scooter drivers... 
had a little reply ready (i've typed it *twice* now, fucker of a computer kept screwing up, but probably for the best as I get more to the point each time) in regards to your previous post.
short story, went through the same experience from the female side of things about six months ago with a partner who had the same feelings as you, but was quite vocal about them (cruelly at times).
she's got a shitload of regret, not only because she can't have kids again but it's so much more than you ever imagined and there is a such a grief and natural feeling of loss you can't describe. Go to any abortion sites with stories and read the thousands of responses of regret.
the one single factor in retrospect i wish had been done differently, and I think she really wants is just someone to share the grief. not the guilt, and the anger, but just someone to hold (even though you can't) but to cry with. you know how if a mutual friend dies and everyone bands together? just that need to share with someone else who had half an investment in the baby.
say it to her, how you felt, how it could have been, not cruelly, but that it still hurts you but you can share a grief side of it.
as to eveything else, i guess thats for you to deduce but I hope you work it out and time heals eventually. patience i guess.