modvayne

I'm not looking forward to this morning. I have to go to the doctor bright and early. I have x-rays at 9:20 I think, and then I see the doctor at 10:20. I've been hiding it very well lately, but I'm in intense agony most of the time. My ankle has pretty much broken down I think. I have bone rubbing bone, and I feel the ball in my ankle joint shifting on a regular basis. I may have to have surgery to fuse everything if the doctor deems it necessary. At the least, I'm sure he's gonna try to give me painkillers. One thing about me though, is that I have an extremely high pain tolerance. When most would say they are in extreme pain, I would be saying it only hurts a little. If I say I'm hurting like hell, then it is at a point where most would have wanted to kill themselves to be rid of it long before. A prime example of my pain tolerance would be when I broke my arm as a child. All I said was ouch. I didn't cry or complain, but because I had went over the handlebars of my bike, my mother took me in for x-rays. Sure enough it was broken. The pain I am in now makes me wish I were dead so that I would be rid of it. I guess I'll have to see what the doctor says though.