modvayne

I guess I should explain a little moe about what's going on. When I say it feels like my whole world is crashing down around me, I mean it. I'm finishing up the last of the packing to move out of the only home I've ever really known. The house I grew up in is part of the epidemic in America that is foreclosure. In addition, I have been informed that I am likely to have to undergo surgery every few years for the rest of my life in order to function. The next procedure is a shot in my spine to try to block the nerves in my foot. If that works, I will get an electrical lead implanted in my foot to see if electrical stimulation will keep the nerves calmed down. If that is successful, I will be waiting for approval for an implant along my spinal cord that will be permanent. I will have to go in every few years to get the battery replaced however. I know doctors perform these surgeries every day, but I have a fear of something messing up, and never walking again. Add to all of this that child support is all but saying I'm going to jail because I can't work and can't get disability. It's just one thing on top of another all at once. If it isn't enough to make a person push everyone away and be suicidal, then I don't know what is. It's more than a person should have to deal with all at once.